I'm just gonna start buying comics. It's so much cheaper and easier. Honestly, I went out today and found Detective Comics 845, and then issue 27 of Batman Confidential, each for 3.75$. And then I ordered 26 and 28, this time for like, 2.75$

Comics make me happy and there's no reason for me not to own them. And then I can stop complaining all the time.

stupid Helen Hayes award. Mr. Miller should've won. Who the hell is Andrew Long anyway?


Tomorrow I'm gonna watch movies and sleep and sunbathe and maybe, just maybe, work on homework. Or maybe not.

Swashbuckling was awesome today. Casey was super funny and we all joked about intestines. :) I love that guy. Anyway, we learned all the cool slashy, killy things. It was neato. I got stabbed like, 8 times. I love volunteering for Stage Combatt-y stuff. And Casey liked Sarah and my's fight. Probably because it looks AWESOME. We are so B-A.
Next week we head up to UMD for a workshop and BLOOD EFFECTS! I am soo excited. Seriously, I am.

Previews monday and tuesday. I hope I don't collapse in a fit of exhaustion. Seriously.

and oh yeah, I changed my earrings for the first/second time tonight! They're ladybugs now.

Thank you Brooke. >__>;; this was really fuckin' hard. and it's 3:30 am. D:

Dad and I just cleaned out our darkroom area, so that's awesome. We need to find some tools and some filters... and get some new chemicals, but we are so on top of this! :DD

Tres awesome. I only hope that I don't end up falling asleep on the enlarger only to wake up to no power and having to stumble around my dark house only to be attacked by a guy who was hiding in my closet in a pig mask who then jumped out and kidnapped me. Because I'm really afraid of that. honest.

I'm also afraid of dinosaurs eating my guts while I'm still alive and of being tied to a toilet and killed by draino and pop-rocks after my dog has just been exploded in a microwave, and of having my fingernails ripped out.

So you're aware of some of my deepest fears.

also, being alone forever. and unloved. D: (emo!)

Match Point, which I had no intention of seeing, was actually quite... interesting. I'm not going to say good, becuase I found the first half quite dull and unremarkable, but the second bit was fantastic. It stops being a romantic film and becomes a thriller. Most lovely. Jonathan Rhys Meyers was really rather good.  I've decided I don't like Scarlett Johansen (or whatever) so much. She plays sexpots all the time. and she's not even all that pretty. Or a great actress. Oh well though.

Luck really is a most curious thing. I do say.

The man who said "I'd rather be lucky than good" saw deeply into life. People are often afraid to realize how much of an impact luck plays. There are moments in a tennis match where the ball hits the top of the net, and for a split second, remains in mid-air. With a litte luck, the ball goes over, and you win. Or maybe it doesn't, and you lose.

Good day today. Well, school sucked and Dr. J's was iffy, but the after all that was good.

Mom and I got in a stupid fight while we got noodles, but I think we're over it now.

We went to the Borders and I got's me some books. Red Dragon, Hannibal, The Assault (for school), and Anthony Rapp's book, Without You, which I've started reading and is amazing.

At the Target, mom and I got some Caramel Cadbury eggs, a new pair of headphones for me and RENT. She talked me into it. Honest.

and I got my white under-stuff for Antony and Cleopatra. hurrah. Oh, I am so prepared. I read chunks of A&C at the bookstore, and about two-thirds of the time Eros is helping Antony get his armor on and off. Hell yea. I'm awesome.

(I so want a blue and white striped scarf. I'm not gonna lie.)

You are the pilot.


Saint Exupery's 'The Little Prince' Quiz.
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I wish I could've been the prince, but I'm not that wonderful.

I'm finally getting SWC. I just bought it off BestBuy.com. Which is pretty retarded all in all, but Amazon was all, "it'll be there by the END OF FUCKING FEBRUARY," and I was like, "Bitch PLEASE!" So I took my business elsewhere. I'm never going to amazon for not popular stuff EVER again.

DAMN YOU TO HELL, AMAZON.COM!!!1!!!11!!!!!!!1!

But this week is going okay. Except for the massive piles of homework (that I'm putting off) and Mr. Hemenway being a stupid jerk and shit, things are going well. Hopefully Eric received that little package I gave to Jessica to give to him. If not, I'll kill her. Patricia, you too. If she didn't deliver that, kill your sister. If he did receive it, yay! Then my week will have been wonderful.

I need to give Corie her gift, and THEN my week will have been wonderful. so far.

Illicet substances, Strangers with Candy and giving Corie a kickass gift all in one week? I only know one or two things that could make this week better.... ^____^

P.S.

PATRICIA: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Reply with your name and ...
1. I'll respond with something random I like about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll name something we should do together.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me (or just me).
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.


I can not believe I'm posting that. oh well.

I got my CDs today. I'm very happy.

STUFF TO DOWNLOAD (or have people download for me and put on DVDs):

Stargate Atlantis: Season 2 episode "Duet"
Eyes: Season 1, episodes 1&2. (I wish it wasn't cancelled)
Nightstalker: episode 1
Strangers with Candy: Season 1 episode "A Burdens Burden"
Invader Zim: "Tak the hideous new girl"


oh yea, STILL FRIENDS ONLY, Y'ALL

OMIGOD.

okay, in The Outsiders, did anyone else NOT know that Sandy got pregnant? ANYBODY? cause... I didn't.

holy crapxorz.

Here's the news. I went shopping with Mom and Nonny today and got some stuff.

1) that sporty jacket i've always wanted. i'll most likely wear it tomarrow.
2) a cute Camisole from AE. the other one i liked better didn't come in my size. fuck.
3) Survivor by Good Ol' Chuck Palahniuk. it looked cool.
4) The Rules of Attraction by Bret Eaton Ellis. Funny story with this one actually. I was buying Survivor and i went to ask the person where i could find RoA, and she had to look it up on the computer and turns out there are like, four books with that title, so her and another clerk and me went looking for all of them, and we eventually found the one i wanted. so i went to check out, and the total was like... $28.98. and i only had $27. so i was fucked. i decided that mom would never buy Survivor for me, but maybe RoA, so i decided to not buy that one. So i felt really bad having made them look for the book and then me not buying it. But i came back in like, ten minutes to purchase it. Mom gave it a funny look but then agreed. I feel happy. But i have to finish stupid Turn Of the Screw before i can start either book. fuck.
5) a TeenPeople magazine with Hayden Christensen (and Natlie Portman) on the cover. I have developed a strange fondness for him. It's bothering me just a little. i wanted the EW that had the StarWars question thing (see Megs livejournal for this one ->Specialspeg)(and i would do a Lj-cut to user thing but i'm not sure how it works). but i got it off her Lj and printed it off. it's also gonna go on my wall now. along with a couple pics of Hayden.

I'm in an Ewan McGregor phase as i think i mentioned, so i think i might watch Moulin Rouge sometime soon.

And mom and me watched Phantom of the Opera tonight. it was good and fun</b></a>

Just A General Reminder,
MY LIVEJOURNAL IS

                                                       FRIENDS ONLY!
bitches.

Global Personality Test Results Stability (34%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness (46%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun. Extraversion< (52%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being assertive and social and being withdrawn and solitary. ....that about sums me up.

if i could rewind back to sixth grade, i totally would. no questions. i was SO happy then. i had my friends, and good grades in school... everything. that a whatever... 12 year old girl Could want. but still. lordy.

Diary is a good book. kinda wierd, but good, you know? good... yea. i dunno.

the personality quiz thing also said that i had "low self-esteem." sweet. i am just like my brother. good ol' zach and his low self-esteem.
everytime i refer to Zach in my Lj, i always say, "my brother" instead of just "zach." i can't really imagine why. i mean, you all know Zachs my brother. and about his low self esteem thing.

I <3... [fill in the blank]

i gotta stop having a negative attitude about Margaret P. oh, but on Negative Attitudes, today, i told Ryan i hated him.
i was by my locker, and i had been chatting with Joey for a minute maybe, and theres Ryan-bitch with his down blond hair and his stupid sweatshirt and his skinny tallness. i was all nonchalant and cool.
Me: I hate you.
Ryan: why?
i coulda sworn he said "wait" when i started to walk away. but i guess not. i think the one thing that would've boosted my self-esteem like wow would've been if he'd chased after me. Being all nonchalant-cool me, i just sorta said it and walked away, fast though. trying to be all tuff. tough. i meant tough. in any case, he didnt come after me or anything. he didnt even really stop to process what i said. it was just sorta like he expected it.
i can't beleive i'm getting all hung up on the fact he didnt care.
i got more hung up on stupid David stuff today at school.
but here, now, this whole.. Ryan thing is just hitting me really hard. i am such a hormonal 14 year old girl......

1) Christmas --> not to shabby. i got some of what i wanted, but not what i wanted most. but i hung out with my family, and rode for Five hours with Zach and Josh and Adam. i didnt get Fight Club, or the Ryan Cabrera CD i've been lusting over. i am so materialistic.

2) Teh Beach. what a load of shit. Beach+Winter=boring. i played alot of Pool though, and watched all of Season 2 Andromeda, and watched The West Wing (season 1). i like Sam, He's passive. its cute. and its Rob Lowe. who looks younger everytime i see him, even though he's 40 now. i like Rob Lowe.
but hanging out with Everyone was cool. the...11 of us were almost crowded, even though it was a big house. i'll try and post pictures when i get them developed and scan them and try not to screw up. Leigh, George, and Ben. and Eden and her boyfriend Dan (they were only there for one day). then Laura and Bill, Josh and Adam. and then my family.
Ben has gotten pretty hot since the last time i saw him... 5 years ago. and my parents are still Bartering with George and Leigh over trading me for Chickens and cows n' such. you know, like, arranged marrage style. L-o-l

 i am dissapointed in myself for being unable to ask my mom to buy my Chuck Pauhlniuk(?) novels for me after spending 20 minutes searching for them in a bookstore. im afraid she'll realize he wrote 'Fight Club' and freak out and ban me from ever reading anything by him again. she's afraid i am easily influenced by books and movies (which maybe i am) but still.
 Mom: did you find anything?
 me: [looks at 'Choke' in hands]*sigh* no.
Mom: you sure?
me: [puts book back and feels stupid and sad and dissapointed in myself. wishes i didnt suck.] yea...

3) new years. DULL. "partied" at the beach. which mostly entailed watching four hours of The West Wing, and then drinking sparkling cider and dancing silly. can you beleive Colin Powell dropped the ball? i mean, pressed the button to make the ball drop.

4) Ride home=iffy. Zach liked my music, which was cool. he called Brand New a bunch of pompus Bastards who tried way to hard to be intentionally artsy, but mostly okay when they're actually rocking. i think i agree.

5) Things i Learned:

1. Dont ask to go to parties at someones house who my mom doesnt know
2. dont assume the closet people to you in your family havent done illegal drugs or had sex.
   
3. if you want something, ask for it! dont be a bitch being miserable.
4. appreciate the Internet.

New Years Toasts: To Orion. he's always there for me, just when i need him. so even if, during this next year, i dont find a boyfriend, or a true love or what-not, i'll always have Orion. i have always been a sucker for guys named Ryan.

Resolution: i resolute not to be so ( as i told Denise) so fucking stupid to everybody. which entails not being so obnoxious and mean and annoying. if i ever annoy you, or are talking to much, please tell me.

and I DID NOT get any memorizing done. iiii'm fucked.

oh ya, and we watched I, Robot tonight. not a bad film. Ben(not ca) did say it was like a fancy excuse to have Will Smith take off his shirt. i was, however, pleased to see Shia LeBeauf. or however you spell it .